A Breath of Fresh Air

I feel like today’s day is a new breath of fresh air, as cool as the first wave of water washing over you as if you were to enter a lake on a morning. That first wave instantly washes away any fury, or expectations and fully cleans your slate just by a simple burst of unexpected cold on your body. I guess, change of temperature acting as a pain reliever doesn’t just apply to your internal body functions, but emotional as well. With a clean slate, it then allows you to enter its waters and enjoy the cleansing and emotional balance that it presents you with. This world is so big compared to us, and its size is what allows it to forgive us our little thoughts of negativity and encourage those of compassion. Its like a big, huge, kind old man/woman that you just want to squeeze and hug because of all the love that it presented you with, and all the caring. Because this world cares about you, just like a parent would about child. And today its giving me a breath of fresh air and a clean slate to start on. I want to fill my lungs with its beauty and wisdom. I want to fly with that breeze, with those birds, and release the only pretended-to-exist fear. I want to feel this freedom that is filling up my mind, and encourage it in me and others. I want to open my mind, and invite the world in, “Hi, my name is Kate, or maybe today – it is whatever you want to call me, I’m not limited by my name, or time, or expectations, or freedom. Not even by ability, because that limitation is only created in the mind.” Something reminded me of a quote from a movie, “Time is not important, only life is.” What does it mean to live by that quote? Does it eliminate fear? Of death, of rebirth, of not having enough time? Does it eliminate fear of consequence? Or does it shrink up time to such a pointless seed, that it only encourages the thinking over of our momentary choices, living in the moment?
Hmm… pointless seed.. :) Another theory sprung up :)
What if everything in this world, as it was made was like a seed? Emotion, love, time, anger, evil, kindness.. everything.. was as small as a seed at the beginning. And that seed would grow only in you payed attention to it, it grew if you put that thing into importance. So what happened then? Which seeds did we choose to grow? There is plenty of love, and kindness… but why did we choose to grow evil and anger? Silly to think of it :) but in reality we really did choose to grow it. Every single action starts out like a seed, and you help it grow with your mind, the positivity of your mind acts like a light – guiding that seed in whichever direction – you unconsciously choose it to grow ;) The more light, the better it grows, and the richer you feel, feeling the world growing outside of you and on the inside. :)

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Being Calm

As I am listening to this song, it makes me feel life and its beauty but at the same time the thought of provocation stays in my mind. There are so many things in life that seem to provoke you to test you, every little step of the way and all your decisions seem to be always judged and recorded leading to not necessarily completely direct consequences. Everything in life seems to follow a certain path, a certain ribbon, a certain “lentochka” as I would say in Russian. Like a small kitten would follow a thread of yard as its ball was rolling down the stairs, in the same way we are tempted towards the more fun and relaxing states of our lives. However, it takes one to notice that that ball of yarn will never roll up those stairs, and so will never be able to encourage your will and to set your affairs in order. You, must do that on your own. Every single decision that we make in this life, going down to the little tiny things like keeping up a smile with a stranger, have tremendous effects on our future, on our mind sets and on our happiness. I love how my hands feel on this keyboard, it almost as if I am playing a piano except the music is replaced by words, however creating a very similar effect in me. Maybe the music that would have come out as I would have been playing this would mean the same, notes and words – all make up one expression, that coming from your heart. I think the best way to write, is not to think. But just let the words flow out of you by themselves. The reason for this is that it isn’t your reasoning that is feeling, but your intuitions and your soul, so when you write with soul – it’s in a completely different style and with completely different emotions and interpretations with just a little bit of a hint of more clarity. But this song is beautiful, so calming, sometimes it’s good to silence one’s mind, and let one live by their intuitions. Your life will be what you look forward it to be. The little bit of doubt that was created at the birth of this statement, will be erased with the birth of hope and confidence, and again the silence of your mind. Your mind is like the worrying mother, someone that you cannot neglect and must love, but as the same time it is someone who you just want to hug and say “Don’t worry so much, everything will be ok” to which the response will be “How do you know” and you say “I don’t, I choose to trust life and myself” Calmness, is a choice. It can be a lifestyle, a state of the heart, and that of the mind. It is important for safety and health, but more importantly for understanding. Calmness is the birth of all excitement and all feeling towards life. It accentuates your perceptions and intuitions. It clears up the perceptions of the inner soul and lets you really experience that life, because your mind is no more mingled with worry and your personal creations, it lets you see the actual creations. It makes you happy. Try it sometime. :) All you will have to be, is calm.

Sunrise over a calm sea at Meadfoot. Photo by Karl Memory