Hello World!
Here I stand before you, broken hearted. Not in any hope of redemption, but with a face of humility. My colour is red, my heart is bleeding and my eyes are pure, looking down at the forgotten earth, sucking at my last strength. I don’t know what you want of me, world. I don’t understand your rules, your grounds, but I feel your punishment, the stone around my neck, bringing me down to my blooded knees, humility. I might as well stand naked before all of you, saying these words – it won’t change how I feel inside, it won’t even add a drop to it. Do I want to change? No. I’m tired of expected change. I don’t feel the wrong, I don’t see the wrong, all I feel is your laughter and your put downs. You are drenching me, world... in disgust towards myself. Surprised? Why? It has always been this way. And not just with me, with every living thing on this earth. You laugh at our short lives, at our mistakes, at our lack of courage to survive. You laugh at our misunderstandings, and we just stand there and cry… because you are too big, world, we can’t stand up to you… You hold too much against us. What is the point, if we are all so sinful, we suffer from these sins as we go along due to the guilt they create in us – and what next, more hell? Is this what you do to us world? You give us birth, and use our lives for your pleasure in sadism. Too bad that you are the judge of your own court, and I’m just an innocent bystander looking up at you with eyes full of loss. But I don’t ask for your pity. I don’t need it. I hold enough pity within me to get through the day… I don’t ask, really, anything of you… I’m just a silly marionette tied to your decisions, and your dirty pleasures. Why do you give birth to us and let us live in pain, while allowing ourselves to know that we are in pain? Or was that what the apple was for? To let us live in ignorance, while you played with us in your games of sadism?
I don’t know then, if I am even sorry that she took a bite of it…
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